Photographing 15 Faces of Baby Loss - Letty Taylor
Joanne Lewis • 8 October 2019
Louie's hand and footprints tattoos make me feel close to him
I was honoured to take photos of 15 amazing women for Baby Loss Awareness Week (9-15th October 2019) and be part of the "15 faces of baby Loss" project, in conjunction with East Herts SANDS and Hertford and Bishops Stortford Rainbows and Sunshines groups.
Today I would like to introduce Letty and her rainbow daughter Ava.
Letty's son died at 2 days old leaving her to bring up his twin sister Skye, leaving no time to grieve his loss..

On the 14th Oct 2014 I gave birth to twins at 27 weeks after going through years of fertility issues, IVF was our next step, which was in its self a emotional rollercoaster. To be told we were having twins - the most amazing thing to be told - not one bundle of joy but 2, I did not even think about premature birth; I thought the hard bit was over with.
Skye and Louie were born and whisked away to be look after, but sadly Louie passed away 2 days later in my arms. This was the only chance I had to hold him as he had been too ill to come out of his incubator.
Our whole world fell apart. I didn't know what to do or how to act? I was just numb. My main concern after losing Louie was Skye and being strong for her. They was no time to grieve for Louie Skye needed me. I didn't even think about all the stuff I had brought - a double pram, I'd doubled up on clothes, and even got a new car. That all came after Skye came home, the realisation of what had happened and the loss we had gone through.
In time me and my husband managed to grieve for Louie with the help of family and an online dedication page the funeral company set up for us, which we can add photos and messages to him when ever we need to talk to Louie. The first year we set off a balloon with messages from all his loved ones. Writing down how we felt helped so much. Both me and my husband had Louie and Skye's hand and footprints tattoos done which makes me feel even closer to him . Skye recently started school which was another milestone that Louie wouldn't achieve. I found buying Skye uniform and getting her pack up all sorted so hard because I should have been doing all this for Louie aswell. I felt overwhelmed that Skye was the one who kept me strong and wanting to wake up everyday and she was heading off to school all day. I wondered if I would be able to cope without her? Seeing her doing so well at school has helped me so much, but I'm so wanting her brother to be standing at those school gates with her.
I am a mum of 3 Louie who should be age 4 Skye 4 and Ava 2.

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